At this point, I don't really know what to blog here. I know it's been a long time since I've written, but I'm at a place where I'm just sitting here terrified because I've been having some weird feelings, or symptoms. I don't know if I'm having some sort of panic attack, or heart attack, or hell just a tooth infection, but I've been having some pains in my tooth and ears lately, but I don't know if I'm just being overreactive so I don't say anything. I kinda feel like I'm shivering on the inside, but not the outside. I'm just afraid that no matter what I do, I'm too late to save the one life that I have. I know that this isn't really structured as a blog, but I needed to put this down. I don't want to lose my life to my weight and bad choices, and I'm really afraid that that's what's going to happen, No matter what just know that if you're in my life, I've loved and cherished you all.
Erik.
