30 years, 30 things I'm thankful for

en a long, long time since I've written a note on Facebook rather than a blog on Blogger. Today is Thanksgiving day, 2013 and I thought that I would write a note recounting the 30 things I'm thankful for, representing one thing per year of my life. So, without further ado, I bring to you 30 years, 30 things I'm thankful for. 

30. Electricity, without which I wouldn't be able to compose this note.

29. My favorite Television shows, providing me with background noise to do many other things.

28. Facebook. Even with all the drama, it's still a nice way to connect with old friends, and new ones.

27. The past, for without it, I wouldn't be the person I am now.

26. The present, for without it, I wouldn't know where I want to take my life.

25. Android. 'nuff said.

24. The fact that I have an open mind.

23. The ability to choose what I want to do with my life.

22. Dental hygiene. Without it, I'd probably have a lot less friends.

21. Alcohol. In moderation, a great way to enjoy ones self. If you so choose to.

20. Football! 

19. Nature. It's beauty never ceases to amaze me. 

18. The ability to vote for the right people to be in office. It doesn't always work, but at least I can vote.

17. The freedom that driving affords me. 

16. I'm thankful for my warm and nurturing home.

15. I'm thankful that I have the ability to learn new things, even now. 

14. I'm thankful for video games. 

13. I'm thankful for Wrestling. 

12. I'm thankful that I can change.

11. The New York Yankees!

10. I'm thankful for The The Doctor.

09. I'm thankful for my animals. My animals are part of my family, and they comfort me when needed and are always there.

08. I'm thankful for Tim Horton's coffee. Discovered in 2005, haven't stopped going since. 

07. Photography. One of the few things that I am truly, wholly passionate about.

06. The fairer sex. My life would literally both mean nothing and not exist without you.

05.LIFE & Science. Through which we learn what we are really all about.

04. Friends. New ones, old ones, good ones, bad ones.

03. My Family. Without your support, I might never have realized what I can be.

02. Me. I'm thankful for being me, and not giving up on myself, my goals, and realizing that no matter how dark the night, all one has to do is remember to turn on the light.

01. The men and women including my Uncle, who sacrifice much of their time, their families, and even their own lives to ensure the freedom and safety that we all enjoy. Thank you, to the men and women of the United States Military. Thank you for keeping us all safe and free so we can all realize the potential within. 

     I hope you enjoyed reading what I was thankful for on this, and everyday I'm alive. I hope you enjoy your Thanksgiving day, and don't get too crazy with the shopping. I'd like to hear what you are thankful for. 

Until next time, stay warm and shiny.

5 Things you probably don't know about me, but now you do.

     5 things you don't know about me. Like my status and I will give you a number. Ok, so I was given a number and instead of just writing a status, I decided to take it a step or two further and write a blog. Without further ado, I bring to you, 5 things you don't know about me. 

     Number 5.
I love Christmas, everyone probably knows that. The reason that I love it so, is because it's the only time of year that I remember really and truly believing that magical things could happen to me. Of course, then I grew up and realized that magical things would never happen to me, because I'm not "perfect" enough for you people.

     Number 4.
I love to do yoga. Not regular yoga, but DDP Yoga, which is a bit more strenuous than just straight up stretching.

     Number 3.
I often feel as though I'm just kept around so people have someone to talk to about their problems. Sometimes I feel like very few people actually value my friendship, and sometimes I feel like I'm not a very good friend.

     Number 2.
I sometimes think about what my life would be like if science were advanced enough to actually achieve the extraordinary things that science fiction depict.

     Number 1.
When I die, I want to live among the stars, from which I came.

5 things that you probably don't know, and now you do.

Replaceable

     Good morning, and welcome to the show.  This was supposed to be a different post, but I'm going to save that for a different time.

     Do you ever feel like you don't connect with people? Part of me feels like I'm not fully accepted, like I'm only partially needed in others' lives. Like I'm only partially included in their lives,  and so I draw back because I'm not giving 100% of me, regardless of the relationship, when there are secrets, half truths and the like. 

     My day is full of acquaintances and people who couldn't give a shit if my life ended, if you are one of those, please find the door and close it. I don't need you, I don't want you in my life. I don't need to feel as though I am replaceable, because I'm so much more than that.

     I know this is a short one, but I will be back with a better post, very soon.  Updates and news and maybe some reviews. Until then, stay hot and may the Sun's light shine upon you.

    

Everyday is day one

     Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, children of various ages, welcome to the sun, let's look at the view. Not the view that stars some ladies sitting around a table telling America all the celeb gossip, but the view from the Sun, shall we get through it, yes let's do it!

     So, I've decided that I need to keep a caloric content journal. My problem is that I start writing out the stuff I eat, and next thing I know, I forget to write something down, or I eat something that I forget about and it just goes off track. I need to discipline myself much stricter than I have been.

     Beginnings are hard. Probably the most difficult things in the world. You have to let go of the past, and walk in to something that isn't certain, the future. I'm in the stages of new beginnings, I've been the same, stagnant person for the past decade. I need a new path, a journey that I craft and decide, not one that is decided for me. I'm torn between two things that I love, psychology and technology. I love them equally, and I'm having the hardest time deciding between the two.

    For me, every day has to be day one. No matter how long I'm at it, everyday must be day one, so that keep the determination of day one, because in the end, it is only you versus you. Comparing yourself to anyone else is futile, and if you do, you've already lost.

     I want to find healthy, delicious recipes that are affordable to make. I can't spend a lot on groceries because I don't have a lot of money right now. I am searching for a diet/exercise regimen that works for me. Something that I can afford and be able to stick to. Something that will push me to the limit, but not kill me and make me want to give up. 

     I guess I'm searching for my soul, my life, my future. It's a difficult search, and in my search, I guess it's the journey that we must cherish, not just the destination. The love and support of my friends and family is what will help me to push my self to succeed. 

     Welcome to the journey, I hope you enjoy the ride as much as I will. We only get one life, and I defy anyone to tell me that they will be entitled to anything once we are all in the ground. Life is a journey that only happens once, lets rock it!

Rude awakening

     Hello readers, and welcome once again to the view from the sun. I am your host as always, the charming Eros Helios. Today is day 2 on my long journey and, man did it come with a rude awakening when it comes to my diet.

     I like coffee. Anyone who knows me, knows this to be true. My local coffee joint is Tim Horton's, and as I do on most days, I went to buy myself coffee. Well, I didn't just get coffee, I also got oatmeal and a muffin. I should have just stuck with the coffee, and maybe the oatmeal, because the muffin has 400 calories, and then I look at the coffee, it has 440 calories in it. I know, sugar is not good for me, but it's a habitual kinda thing, and I like my coffee to be sweet-ish. Then I looked at the cream, and the cream has 300 calories for an extra large.

     With all that in mind, it looks like I'm going to have to either cut down on my coffee, cut down on cream and sugar or find lower calorie, non artificial sweetener, natural sweetener. It's just one thing that I'm going to have to change, but in the end it will be worth it. I suppose that coffee wasn't meant to be guzzled by the gallon anyway (hyperbole, I don't actually drink it by the gallon), but to be sipped and enjoyed slowly, just as life is meant to be.

     I'm thinking that I might write more than one of these blogs a day, because if I write one in the morning, well, you miss out on the rest of the day. Who knows. The road may be long and winding, but ultimately, it's going to be enjoyable.

     Thanks for checking me out, til next time, stay sunny!

Birthday time again.

     Ladies and gentlemen, a day late, and a dollar short, but here I am! Birthday blog 2013. The big 30, and I don't feel a day over 18. I have some problems, but I'm gonna solve them. 1,2,3, lets proceed!

     Not an easy day for some, as yesterday marked 11 years, to the day that we returned my grandmother to the earth. 11 years ago, on Tuesday, 30th of July 2002, I was waking up, dreading what lay before me. Time passed and healed all the wounds, but the scars are still there and they always will be.

     On to better thoughts though, now that I'm 30, I suppose that I really need to make changes. I don't remember how I got here, but here I am, and now I need to go elsewhere. I see you, probably scratching your head in confusion. By this I mean I need to get my health on track, I need to get my education on track, and I need to get me on track.

     Within the next year, I want to get in school, and I want to lose weight. I need to amend those statements because, I will be in school and I will lose weight! I'm asking you, my friends, my audience, to hold me accountable. Help me to keep my administration transparent (Ok, I'm an administration of one, but I haven't got the money to hire people, so bear with me.) I need to have my friends give me moral support, keep me on the straight and narrow (so to speak) seeing as I don't have the money for a personal trainer and I sure as hell don't have the luck to have a movie like experience of a personal trainer or some such individual taking interest in me and caring enough about me to do it for free.

     It's important to look to the future, but it's also important to never forget those that came before you. Those who sacrificed their futures to bring you up, rather than abort you, and the ones who sacrifice their very lives to maintain the freedoms that you enjoy. Never forget the blood, sweat and tears that have been shed, but also remember that there are good days for with the good we must have the bad. Life is simply a pile of good things and bad things, and the good things don't necessarily soften the bad things, and the bad things don't make the good things irrelevant.

     We all need help, and it takes an extraordinary amount of courage and effort to take the first step and admit that you need help. It's a debilitating feeling to know that you can't do something yourself.

     I hope that each and every one of you who read this, or know me, will be here for my journey. I will be taking time out of my day to not only blog about random things, but also I will be keeping a food blog/diary and I hope that if I forget, or if I start slacking, someone will be there asking me why. It is my hope that one day people will look at me and say, "He EARNED his life back, it wasn't just given to him."

     And so, I say for the next chapter in my life.... IT'S CLOBBERING TIIIIIIIIIIIIME!

Realism

     Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to the View from the Sun, and I'd like to welcome you to a very special post. This post is about as real as a person can get. I'm not going to sugar coat anything. I'm not gonna pull any punches, I'm going to be as honest as can be. This view is about to get bright, this view is about to burn.

     Are you ready? I am 29 years old. In 16 days, I will be 30 years old. I feel like I live my life as though it's over. I feel like it is too late for me to do anything other than what I've done. I don't feel driven to do anything "important" not because I don't want to accomplish anything, but because I feel like I already am past my prime, make sense to you? Because it doesn't make any kind of sense to me.

     I know that some people are going to tell me how great my life could be, and I know that it could be, but I don't know how to bridge the gap. I don't know how to get myself on the right path. A path forward, I don't really care if it's the "right" path, as long as it moves me forward, that's right enough for me.

     I know that I should feel driven toward something, but I just can't seem to find it. Once upon a time, my story would have traversed the industry known as professional wrestling, but once the doubt and negativity filled my soul, that was a pipe dream that would never come to fruition. I've had and wasted so much potential, because I really have never been able to believe in myself because there was always someone there to knock me down, and show me that I wasn't worth believing in, even though I was, and still am.

     Finding the proper motivation and tools to succeed is my top priority right now. I want so badly to become more than what I am, but my mind seems to feeble to get there. They say that if you believe it, you can achieve it, and I can almost begin to formulate the process in which I can believe it. I don't want to wake up every morning and think, "Gosh, why bother, my life is practically over" I want to go throughout the whole day saying, "What else can I do to achieve my goals, and help those that I love achieve theirs".

     Though the road is going to be long, arduous and at times disheartening, I need this. I need to get somewhere other than this, self imposed prison. Come hell or high water, I will do it. I'm not dead yet, you're gonna have to kill me to stop me. All the way to the top of the ladder, I will get my briefcase.